I’ve been writing about my pregnancy plans over at Being Pregnant. This pre-trying stage of weighing impossibly weighted questions, counting months in nines, getting physically and mentally prepared. Talking myself in circles until I’m back where I started, again and again.
For now it’s just him. Singing to himself, playing by himself — sharing adventures with a dark companion attached to his feet.
He searches the ground when it’s hiding behind him. “I don’t see my shadow,” he’ll say, squinting up at me.
He spots his shadow, invites him to play.
To explore, to learn. “Come with me, friend.”
And it’s in those moments that I know he’s longing for a playmate. Not just a friend, but an extension of himself. Someone to share his shadows. Someone who won’t disappear when the sun goes to sleep.
But for now it’s just us. For now I’m that companion.
For now.
Awww. I love this post, Michelle. I can’t wait for the next stop in your journey.
Thank you, Amber!
Um, way to make me cry early in the morning! Beautifully said
Before Lulu was born, before she was even conceived, I longed for her to be here. I could almost see her snuggling in bed with me, in my arms, and giggling while we played.
I imagined her laughing and playing and looking up at me. When I would sit in my bed by myself, it was like there was an indent in my comforter waiting to be filled with a round, chubby-cheeked, smiling little sweet girl.
There was a missing puzzle piece in my life, a missing part that was almost tangible.
Now she’s here and I can snuggle her and sing to her, make her laugh and soothe her tears. I get to watch her grow and that missing puzzle piece is found. I know in time me, my husband, and Lulu will be ready for another sweet chubby-cheeked baby (but it’s going to be a little while – my baby is only 3 months!).
I wish you the best in trying to figure out the timing for another baby. It’s a difficult and incredibly personal decision.
So, so sweet Michelle. This one gave me goosebumps. So many times I look at my girls playing together, and it occurs to me that if I have done one thing right on this earth, at least I have given them each other.
Best of luck on this journey. My kids are 14.5 months apart, and watching them grow together is just unparalleled. There is nothing like having an in-house playmate, or to paraphrase, extensions of each other.
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What a great post. Good luck with your journey.
Love this post with the shadow pictures.
Such beautiful photos! My girls are 2.5 yrs apart and they are such wonderful playmates for each other.